I need help…or at least a hug…

I know a lot of people had some averse reactions to the controversial Sebastian/Clary scene in City of Lost Souls. Apparently there were quite a few people it had a triggering effect on due to similar experiences they had themselves. I was one of those people. 

I don’t like to talk about what happened to me, because it’s not only traumatic, but complicated, and to be honest… a big part of me wants to protect him from negativity.

But ever since I read that scene, I’ve had trouble getting it out of my mind. I really need to talk to someone about it. Preferably someone who doesn’t have a very close connection to me and my family. I need to get these feelings out and to have someone, anyone, tell me how I can possibly handle these resurfacing emotions. 

I’m eight months pregnant; this is the worst time for this memory to come back and haunt me. 

I won’t post any details here. But if anyone feels they can help or just talk it out with me, I would be so incredibly grateful.